Another day at work, lost in the confusion of cubicles filled with computers and other technological marvels, ergonomically correct chairs, and people too busy to smile. Five days a week my life is spent like this, only to be broken by what seems to be two very short days of sitting at home doing nothing. Ah yes, what an exciting life I lead. Living an “existence” that consists of drifting through the abyss we call life, with no real purpose or objective, just simply occupying space.
Ah yes, I do have some friends to share the joys of life with but once another person enters the room I am but a memory, a shape that blends into the wall as if I was a painter’s design. Could it be that I wear such neutral colours that I am discernable from the drab wallpaper or paint that adorn the walls? Most days this theory could be true but even on those rare days when I do wear brighter colours I still seem to fade away when in a group.
Now that I am expecting a child the little acknowledgement I do get will be reduced even further by a small being no bigger than my head. In another month or so my transformation into the invisible man will be complete. Be warned that if you are bumped by an unseen force, or you walk into a large soft mass of nothingness, please apologize, step to the side and continue on your way for it was just me that you walked into, The Invisible Man.
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Oh Big D...that's not the case at all. When I ask you questions about whatever...all I get back is "I don't know man." Or, my personal fave, "Dude..".
I am your friend, and you will never be 'invisible' to me...I genuinely care about your feelings and how you're doing.
You're right...when that little being shows up, you'll have to devote a lot of time to it...but I think, ultimately, your view on life will be a little different. Your life will have a meaning, and a purpose, and not just to 'occupy' space.
I'm sure a lot of newbie fathers feel just the same way...don't worry. Tell your wife how you feel; I'm sure she'll understand...I'm here for you; let me know what I can do to help ;)
P.S. When "they" walk into the room, I feel how cold it gets too...don't worry; it's not only you!!
Just think, once the baby's here you'll be one half of it's whole entire world. How can that make you invisible? He'll know you by sound, touch and smell, he'll respond to you more than most other stimuli. He'll know you as dada (eventually).
Sure, you can get lost at work. We all do, that's just a given. At home, you'll be King Shit. Doesn't that sound good?
Apparently that feeling runs in the family. I have had the same feeling a LOT lately.
But hey, you and mom are the two in the family I am closest to and you are by no means invisible!!
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